when being me isn't enough,

Have you ever had those moments where you've made a decision but after which start to wonder if that decision was the right decision?

So I just received a call asking me if I'm still up for being a GL for Group 8 for this year's BAOC and.....................................i said yes.

I'm afraid of how it's going to be like, and I'm afraid of meeting the freshies. What if I'm not as ready to commit as I think I am? What if they don't like me? What if I'm not fun enough? What if I'm so socially awkward that I can't speak to them properly? What if I've just ruined their first impression of NP's School of BA?

Numerous thoughts have been and are running through my mind. Thoughts about how I wouldn't be enough. But yet I choose to take up this opportunity anyway. I've wasted a whole year in my poly life without anything for me to remember by. I just want to be more involved in school activities and meeting people and hating people and bitching about people who hate me and be so consumed with school activities that I can barely breathe.

But most of all, I want to live my life to the fullest. No more missing out for me.

I'm still scared, but I'm just gonna push forward and see where all these brings me.