Fear,

I'm terribly afraid.
I'm afraid that I don't mean as much to the people who mean the world to me.

My church friends mean the world to me, they are the only people I truly consider my friends. They are my godly counsel, they don't judge me, and they point me back to Jesus every time I'm down. But then again, they have other friends. They have their dancer friends, their secondary school friends etc. While I don't. And each time I see them hanging out with them, I can't help but feel a pang of jealousy. But more than jealousy, I felt insecure.

What if they didn't like me as much as their other friends? What if they would rather hang out with their other friends than hang out with me? What if I'm just a second choice to them?

What if my best friends don't feel like I'm their best friend?