Life doesn't excite me anymore.
And I'm not saying this in the omg-i'm-so-emo-i-wanna-die way. It's just not exciting and thrilling enough for me anymore. Right now, everywhere I go, I go to the same places, I meet the same people, I hear the same jokes. It's starting to become way too repetitive for my liking and I don't want my life to just be a routine.
At times when I say things like these, people tell me that what I really need is Jesus. I don't deny it. I love Jesus and I love how much Jesus loves me. I still receive revelations when I read the bible and I continue to give praise to Him. I still see Him in every bit of my life and I still believe that His grace, favour, mercies, and every blessing follow me everywhere I go.
I know all these. I understand all these. I believe all these.
Yet what I truly need now are new friends, new jokes, new conversations, new environment. I know this is a worldly way of thinking compared to all my christian friends who say otherwise. But it still remains undeniably true.
I don't want my spiritual growth to be ever increasing yet my feelings and emotions to be stagnant. I need it both to be growing together, and I can't do one without the other.
To be honest, I'm starting to get tired of seeking advice from my christian friends. All they do is tell me to seek Jesus and to see Jesus in everything that I do. But is there not one of them who can give me practical advice for the situations that I'm in?
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