A Gemini Mind

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So I bought a new pair of shoes today because I was a wreck emotionally. Somehow there's just something about spending money that lifts my spirits up even though it's bad for my pocket.

I am upset at the fact that people glance over me as if I'm completely invisible. I'm a Gemini after all, I crave for attention and closeness to people. And the fact that people have been blatantly talking about how 'dao' I am and how I look like I wouldn't care or be interested to talk to them hurts me angers me annoys me.

And every day every hour every minute every second, I can feel my walls building even higher, even thicker, because nobody would ever truly understand me,

I felt like an idiot tearing at the school bus stop and on the bus home but I'm just so freaking emotional and it really doesn't help that I'm currently on my menstrual cycle so all my hormones are wilder than ever.

But I guess I'll get over this. I always do. I'm always okay. Because if I don't pick myself up, there'll be no one there to do it for me. Suck it up Nic, this is your life, live it, love it, accept it.

P/s: I'm so excited for Legoland on Saturday with the primary school clique!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!