Why is it that just being myself is never enough? Why is it that I just can't be real around people? It just always seems like I'm putting on a charade for all to see. And that I'm just showing others what they want to see.
I guess it's because I feel that once I show others who I really am, none of them would make time for me anymore.
I know, I'm not the best person in the world. I get major mood swings and I flare up easily at the littlest thing. I'm extremely sensitive to the things that people say and the way that people behave. I'm bossy and I like to have things my way, if I don't, I'd have a 180 degree change in my mood and I'd get all depressed.
But I guess, somewhere along the way, I've stopped the pretense. I'm just showing who I really am, and I know not many people might like me for it.
But it's cool, I don't like me either. Hahahahahahahahah, because I know how annoying and bitchy I can be.
Sigh, sometimes I just wonder why life has to be so C O M P L I C A T E D.
To sum this all up, I guess I really am sick of being sad and how full of flaws I am.
But in the end, I still mope around from day to day, silently hoping for someone to hear my earnest cries of help.
Maybe I just want someone to be there for me, and to truly accept me for who I am.
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