When you seem so far away,

...but I guess afterall I'm used to it.

If you know me personally, you'd know that I don't exactly have a large circle of friends. I probably just have a few close friends and that's about it.

But what happens when even your closest friend seems so distant away now?

I miss her so much.
I know that she has her own circle of friends, but sometimes it just seems like she can't make time for me anymore, like I've become only a part of her past. Not her present, not her future.

I've known her since secondary 1, we laughed, we cried, we enjoyed the same things, we did everything together. She was my best friend.
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But I guess I'm not her best friend, not anymore.

She has a new best friend, one whom she does everything with.

I held this all in for one and a half years. You said that we'll be as close as ever, but are we now?

I miss you so much, but you seem to even have forgotten about me.

I've got so many things I want to tell you, just like in the past. I want to tell you about how I'm feeling, I want to ask you for advice on so many things, I want to ask you out just one more time, I want to talk to you like you're my best friend again.

This is why I hate getting too involved in friendships or any form of relationships. I get too attached, believing that everything will be peachy and great, yet I get hurt in the end. Because eventually, nobody treats you like how you wanted to be treated.

My life isn't great at all, that I know for a fact.