Say what you mean,

When I saw what you replied me, I was upset.

But when I found out why you said that, I was crushed.

Maybe you didn't know, but I've closed myself off from many people ever since the beginning of last year. I never fit in anywhere. But with you, I told you everything, because I've known you for ages, and you're one of my best friends.

It's not the first time you've blew me off. It happens almost every single time we plan a day to go out together, you even agreed to it, but you'll tell me that you can't go at the last minute. Previously, I was fine with it, because it was due to family commitments and stuff like that, so I understood. But now?

I'm not blaming you for finding your happiness ya know. It's just the fact that I've been feeling so neglected ever since you got together with him. I feel like my place in your heart has shrunk so small, sometimes to the extend that I wonder if you ever remember me.

I'm not a person with many friends. Not many close friends at least. But now that you're doing this to me all the time, it just hurts like crap even though it probably doesn't even affect you.

But hey, I've gotta get used to this right?

I am used to this ya know. Being disappointed I mean. Just not by my closest friends.

You can go ahead and ask me out when you finally have the time.